"I Hate Myself"

So this break has been anything but extremely exciting so far. For the most part it has been boring with sparks of awesomeness. I've hung out with America, Gio, Ed and the Bike Collective, but I've spent most of my days inside my house kinda just being there and playing video games. So far I've beaten Kingdom Hearts II, clocked in crazy hours into Mario Kart 64 and played a lot of Rayman Origins (I cannot stress how amazing that game is).

On the more upside, I went to Amoeba on Saturday with America and bought the new Huntress album (what a pain to find...) while America bought the Worlds Torn Asunder album by Warbringer. I do have to admit that she hated me while we were walking out of the place hahaha.

On Monday I saw Men in Black 3 with Kevin, Gio and Luis. I have to say that I'm really surprised by how that movie came out. It was better than all of my expectations.

So unintentionally, America and I have created a food scale that goes: bad, ok, good, great, I hate myself. (The "I hate myself" is reserved for the best of meals).

My break is still young and I'm hoping there are many more crazy awesome moments, but until then, here I sit listening to early Def Leppard. Good night everyone.

Deja Vu

I don't know what to post. My emotions are all over the place. I feel sorrow like I want to sob but cannot actually bring myself to it. I want my life to just be calm and relaxing for just one day but that itself just seems like too much to ask for. Yesterday was awesome and today just ruined the enjoyability of a lot of things. I don't feel the same laughs when I watch Daria that I did just watching clips earlier on in the week. I'll let my repressed thoughts live on in the music I hear. Some metal is dark and that's just the way I like it. The world is not a beautiful place as people make it out to be. "No life. No hope. No future."

Ni Me Creo Yo

I feel like I'm going crazy. I have become impatient with myself and with my school work. This week is going to be a nightmare and I'm already hating myself. My pals America and Gio have kept me sane this weekend (as well as listening to Jim Gaffigan, Mitch Hedberg and Bill Bailey and watching European soccer). Right now, just getting through the week will be hectic but I'll make it. Hopefully this weekend I'll be able to hang out with Gio, America, Irving, Kim, Zoya and Britney as a group and just have some great laughs like we usually do. So far I only have two plans set for the summer including finding a good coffee shop with America, but now is not the time to be thinking of that. Well my break is over and I have a paper to finish

One of 365 (or 366)

Today is Mother's Day in the United States and like almost every other holiday, must land on a Sunday. Anyways, the problem with American holidays, specifically Mother's Day, Father's Day and Thanksgiving, is that they promote a family to be extremely thankful on that one exact day and say fuck it to every other. Now this mentality has been passed to my mom (and I do blame myself for not seeing this coming) and she confessed to me that she was disappointed in me because I did not buy her a card.

Many people would see me as a shitty ass son and I will except that for at times I have pretty much been dead to her. But at the moment, this is not the point I'm trying to make, instead I'm trying to explain why I disagree in her view in being disappointed in me.

First of all, I appreciate my mother and tell her how much I love her every morning and every night. I let her do the "Father, Son and the Holy Spirit" cross thing on me every morning before I leave to school and every night before I go to bed even though I don't believe in God or religion, but it makes her happy.

Secondly, I have a thing against buying holiday cards from stores because of the lack of emotion it presents. I'm not going to the store for a $3 card that says "Happy Mother's Day" on the outside and "I love you Mom" printed on the inside just so I can sign my name at the bottom.

Mom, I'm sorry if I'm not up to your standards as your ideal child by having long hair, dressing in all black, riding my bike at 1 in the morning and not buying you a Mother's Day card on Mother's Day, but you and I perceive a lot of things differently and we may never settle our differences. But I love you with all my whole heart everyday and if that's not enough, well I just don't know what is...

App For That

Homeward bound, i'm writing this post while walking to the bus stop in my yellow Pokemon shirt with my messanger bag in tow. There is no specific reason to be posting this but I'm using the Blogger app on my phone.
Enjoy your day everyone.

With Guns Still Smoking

This song is called "Hey Man" by Emanuel. I heard this song a couple years ago on Burnout 3. This song is really cool and more along the lines of hard rock than metal. Check it out and have a great day everyone.

Pizza and Lunch

So yesterday I had lunch with one of my favorite friends, America. Over the last year, we've developed a special bond (not that kind) where pretty much anything we talk about is not weird at all (plus we never have not awesome conversations). Kittens is a constantly reoccurring theme hahaha. So as usual, we just had a conversation spanning EVERYTHING from kittens to finals papers to faux ghetto girls from the valley. I swear, as much as I love being around her and just chatting, I can no longer eat in her presence (let alone drink a beverage). There were several moments when I could not swallow the soda I was drinking because I was too busy laughing and didn't want to cough it up everywhere. What kind of friend doesn't let you finish drinking before saying something hilarious? A damn good one. Well I need to get back to studying and writing papers so I don't know if I'll update this thing anytime between now and next Thursday, but until then. Be good people.

I Don't Deserve The Sympathy

Hello internet, Amon Amarth is definitely one of the greatest metal bands to exist since my birth. This song is called "The Hero" and I would like to propose it as their best song off of Twilight of the Thunder God. I love that the title contradicts the actual story the song portrays. The song itself is insanely depressing and that's exactly what I love about it. Check out the song and have a great night everyone.

We Will Live To Fight Another Day

Hi there everyone, today is Saturday in case you did not know. Anyways, today I'm posting "The Trooper" by Iron Maiden. Almost any Maiden song is a classic and without a doubt one of their biggest ones is "The Trooper." This was one of the first big metal songs to feature the galloping sound. Check it out and have a great day.

Save Yourself, Don't Wait On Me

My life flashed before my eyes this weekend. On Friday I was hit by a car while driving my bike and was less than six inches from crashing directly into the back of a parked tow truck and essentially breaking all my ribs. I have no idea if I'm in denial or anything, but I laughed it all off the second it happened. I've never felt scared or traumatized since it happened. On the contrary, I've missed no being able to ride my bike. Like I would on a daily basis.

Im curious to know what exactly is going on in my mind. Am I still in shock and haven't realized that I just starred death in the face and nonchalantly walked away? That if I were to have been hit a second later I'd be in a hospital bed on a respirator with possibly a punctured lung. If I were to have died, I wouldn't have had the opportunity to tell my friends how much I love them all and how much of an impact they've all had on me over the years. Most importantly, I would have died with a messy room.

But on the brightside of the spectrum, I would have had an honorable death. I was listening to heavy metal, riding my green bike and was doing well in college (plus a super coach in FIFA 12). I couldn't have really asked for more from anyone (well maybe if I had a rubber duck on my bike or something).

I don't know but I really need to take a day or two and to just sit and think and reflect what is currently in my surroundings. I've always taken everything, including friends and family, for granted. I have had the opportunity to do things others have never done in their lives (and some will never), yet I still bitch about shit all the time. Thinking about this kind of stuff is depressing but makes helps you grow a little stronger in life.

Across The Grass Between The Glass

Buenos dias everyone, today I'm going a little more mainstream than the traditional. This is "Crossing the Frame" by Coheed and Cambria. I bought the album Good Apollo, I'm Burning Star IV, Volume 1: From Fear Through The Eyes Of Madness at the same time as I bought RoadRunner Records' RoadRunner United back in 2005. I have to admit that I still have both albums in constant rotation. Anyways, the song is catchy and very rock orientated. Check it out and have a great day everyone.