Sometimes it's hard not to be jealous. But it is what it is.

I love you with everything my heart holds

ditto

Tonight feels like it was all my fault thanks to yesterdays events and other things leading up to it. A lot of things are my fault and tonight feels like one of them. Going to miss sleeping alongside you tonight. I love you very much

DIY

I'm going through a DIY phase right now. It doesn't really make sense to me why or how it happened, but it did and I love it. I recently got an Xbone and painted my controllers red and black. And then I changed the colors on my thumbsticks on my PS4. It was REALLY fun to do. Thankfully I had my special someone to help me do all the work :)

There are still a lot of things about myself I need to improve. I know for a fact that I grew a lot in 2014 and in 2015 I will continue. Entering this new year I'm part of a relationship that continues to evolve into places I never saw coming. There is obvious excitement as well as uncertainty, but also a willingness to attempt new things in what could be either great or ultimate failure. Luckily our bound is as strong as ever and whatever the future holds, we're ready for it.

Development

 I look at myself now and truly do realize that I've grown as a person in ways I really would have ever imagined. The way I view people. The way I view the world. It's rather amazing but it's also rather scary. I think differently. React differently. The decisions I make are different. Some people are winners. Some are losers. Sometimes I'm the winner and sometimes I'm not. I've come to realize that I should not regret decisions, but rather analyze whether they were the correct ones. We all make mistakes and we all have flaws. I truly appreciate people for not being perfect. Diversity in thoughts, likes and ideas is what makes us individuals. I might act like the same guy from 10 years ago but brain is in another world. I'm more open and more acceptable to so many things that sometimes I catch myself saying "You have never even thought twice about saying no to this three years ago." But here I am, self-reflecting and hoping to grow even more. Many things in life have led me to where I am now and I'm truly glad they all came together to put me into this situation where I am. And a big thank you to the special person in my life whose played a huge in helping me become who I am. Thank you

Working List of Everything I Want to Buy

• Disney Infinity 2.0 with Stitch and Merida
• Grand Theft Auto 5 for the PS4
• Bayonetta 2
• Far Cry 4 for PS4
• Kingdom Hearts 2.5
• Super Smash Bros WiiU
• Super Smash Bros Amiibos:
• Link
• Pikachu
• Yoshi
• Marth
• Peach
• Samus
• Kirby
• Kingdom Hearts Christmastown Sora Action Figure
• Witcher 3
• Kingdom Hearts poster
• Shadows of Mordor
• LittleBigPlanet 3
• Captain Toad
• Splatoon
• Plants vs Zombies: Garden Warfare

Geeeek

I feel like I'm finally turning into the nerd/geek/whatever-label-you-want-to-use that I've always wanted to be. My room is covered in posters from movies: Saw, Frankenweenie, Jackass; to video games to soccer. I have a giant collection of Disney Infinity figures (including the whole Guardians of the Galaxy set). I have action figures of Alice: Madness Returns, Kingdom Hearts and Bioshock (and I still need to buy Christmastown Sora). I have awesome coffee table books. I have a Collector's Edition Legend of Zelda Monopoly. I have a Legend of Zelda 3DS. I have every Oswald the Lucky Rabbit mug and stuffed animal available. I buy cds and video games like crazy. I have a record player with some of my favorite all time records. I built a gaming computer. I don't regret buying my WiiU and PS4 cause they're both awesome as fuck. 

How am I not suppose to feel like I'm an anchor on the fun things you like to do when you have a tendency to go to bars and stay out late every time you go out with someone who is not me. Maybe I'm just the one whose not fun to go out drinking with. Oh well.

To My Weenie

As the summer comes to a close, it looks like it's ending on an incredible high. You should be proud of yourself for your excellent achievements and accomplishments. This summer had been radically different from what was expected and I can't be any happier for you on how it's played out. You've developed relationships, friendships, created lots of memories and most importantly grown as person in various aspects. I'm happy you've been able to enjoy it as much as you have and that you've cherished all of it. I hope that you always remember this summer as special one 

Even though the food sucked, the positives severely outweigh the negatives :)