Yesterday I received the highest compliment I could receive, you were speechless when you saw me come out of the fitting room. It's been a really long time since I've been able to provoke a reaction even similar to it since the summer. I'm sorry that I can't look that attractive all the time but it was really nice to see you speechless and it made me feel great about myself and my own self confidence. 

New things can be scary sometimes. But sometimes they also bring excitement.

A Random Non-Metal Playlist

Time Travel

I forgot to post this many weeks ago. But I still find it relevant to how I feel now 

Sometimes it's hard not to be jealous. But it is what it is.

I love you with everything my heart holds

ditto

Tonight feels like it was all my fault thanks to yesterdays events and other things leading up to it. A lot of things are my fault and tonight feels like one of them. Going to miss sleeping alongside you tonight. I love you very much

DIY

I'm going through a DIY phase right now. It doesn't really make sense to me why or how it happened, but it did and I love it. I recently got an Xbone and painted my controllers red and black. And then I changed the colors on my thumbsticks on my PS4. It was REALLY fun to do. Thankfully I had my special someone to help me do all the work :)

There are still a lot of things about myself I need to improve. I know for a fact that I grew a lot in 2014 and in 2015 I will continue. Entering this new year I'm part of a relationship that continues to evolve into places I never saw coming. There is obvious excitement as well as uncertainty, but also a willingness to attempt new things in what could be either great or ultimate failure. Luckily our bound is as strong as ever and whatever the future holds, we're ready for it.

Development

 I look at myself now and truly do realize that I've grown as a person in ways I really would have ever imagined. The way I view people. The way I view the world. It's rather amazing but it's also rather scary. I think differently. React differently. The decisions I make are different. Some people are winners. Some are losers. Sometimes I'm the winner and sometimes I'm not. I've come to realize that I should not regret decisions, but rather analyze whether they were the correct ones. We all make mistakes and we all have flaws. I truly appreciate people for not being perfect. Diversity in thoughts, likes and ideas is what makes us individuals. I might act like the same guy from 10 years ago but brain is in another world. I'm more open and more acceptable to so many things that sometimes I catch myself saying "You have never even thought twice about saying no to this three years ago." But here I am, self-reflecting and hoping to grow even more. Many things in life have led me to where I am now and I'm truly glad they all came together to put me into this situation where I am. And a big thank you to the special person in my life whose played a huge in helping me become who I am. Thank you