Development

 I look at myself now and truly do realize that I've grown as a person in ways I really would have ever imagined. The way I view people. The way I view the world. It's rather amazing but it's also rather scary. I think differently. React differently. The decisions I make are different. Some people are winners. Some are losers. Sometimes I'm the winner and sometimes I'm not. I've come to realize that I should not regret decisions, but rather analyze whether they were the correct ones. We all make mistakes and we all have flaws. I truly appreciate people for not being perfect. Diversity in thoughts, likes and ideas is what makes us individuals. I might act like the same guy from 10 years ago but brain is in another world. I'm more open and more acceptable to so many things that sometimes I catch myself saying "You have never even thought twice about saying no to this three years ago." But here I am, self-reflecting and hoping to grow even more. Many things in life have led me to where I am now and I'm truly glad they all came together to put me into this situation where I am. And a big thank you to the special person in my life whose played a huge in helping me become who I am. Thank you

Working List of Everything I Want to Buy

• Disney Infinity 2.0 with Stitch and Merida
• Grand Theft Auto 5 for the PS4
• Bayonetta 2
• Far Cry 4 for PS4
• Kingdom Hearts 2.5
• Super Smash Bros WiiU
• Super Smash Bros Amiibos:
• Link
• Pikachu
• Yoshi
• Marth
• Peach
• Samus
• Kirby
• Kingdom Hearts Christmastown Sora Action Figure
• Witcher 3
• Kingdom Hearts poster
• Shadows of Mordor
• LittleBigPlanet 3
• Captain Toad
• Splatoon
• Plants vs Zombies: Garden Warfare

Geeeek

I feel like I'm finally turning into the nerd/geek/whatever-label-you-want-to-use that I've always wanted to be. My room is covered in posters from movies: Saw, Frankenweenie, Jackass; to video games to soccer. I have a giant collection of Disney Infinity figures (including the whole Guardians of the Galaxy set). I have action figures of Alice: Madness Returns, Kingdom Hearts and Bioshock (and I still need to buy Christmastown Sora). I have awesome coffee table books. I have a Collector's Edition Legend of Zelda Monopoly. I have a Legend of Zelda 3DS. I have every Oswald the Lucky Rabbit mug and stuffed animal available. I buy cds and video games like crazy. I have a record player with some of my favorite all time records. I built a gaming computer. I don't regret buying my WiiU and PS4 cause they're both awesome as fuck. 

How am I not suppose to feel like I'm an anchor on the fun things you like to do when you have a tendency to go to bars and stay out late every time you go out with someone who is not me. Maybe I'm just the one whose not fun to go out drinking with. Oh well.

To My Weenie

As the summer comes to a close, it looks like it's ending on an incredible high. You should be proud of yourself for your excellent achievements and accomplishments. This summer had been radically different from what was expected and I can't be any happier for you on how it's played out. You've developed relationships, friendships, created lots of memories and most importantly grown as person in various aspects. I'm happy you've been able to enjoy it as much as you have and that you've cherished all of it. I hope that you always remember this summer as special one 

Even though the food sucked, the positives severely outweigh the negatives :)

I don't think I've every felt this undervalued...

Omnipresent Perception

I have no idea when I got into technical death metal. I think I would resort a lot of it to discovering Obscura a few years back. I think what I like the most about it is the dominant presence of the bass. These bands usually have EXTREMELY talented bass players and this band Beyond Creation is no exception. Don't get me wrong, every technical death metal has incredibly great musicians all around, but the genre glorifies bassists. The song embedded below, "Omnipresent Perception" has an amazing bass solo. The solos are great, the riffs are great and the vocals are great. I have no idea how this band slipped from my vision, but I found them and here they are now :D I love metal

1-3-5

Today I watched Mean Girls. It's been a while since I've last watched and boy a lot of things in the movie I don't recall at all. All those scenes where people start acting like animals seemed brand new to me. Other scenes I recalled completely. I can totally understand why people really love the movie and can quote it like nothing. Hey I do the same exact thing with Red vs Blue. Somehow I didn't remember the character Kevin Gnapoor. I always latch on to comic relief characters but somehow I didn't even recall him being in the movie. Point is, he's a great comic relief because his stuff is more abnormal. With Tina Fey writing the script, most scenes were made to be laughable and Kevin's character exists to remind you of the more realistic characters you would find at a high school that are just so weird they make you laugh. So I definitely liked that. Overall, good movie. Jazz approved.

Genre Purgatory

Coheed and Cambria is one of those bands I claim myself to be a fan of although I've only heard one cd, but dammit that one cd is good. I bought Good Apollo, I'm Burning Star IV, Volume One: From Fear Through the Eyes of Madness in 2005 when I was just beginning 8th grade. At the time they had just released "The Suffering," which was pretty much their big break into mainstream stardom. I thought it was a great song (and still do) so I bought the cd along with RoadRunner Records' RoadRunner United. Whats kinda funny about this band is that a lot of people find them to heavy and guitary for mainstream rock, but not heavy enough for metal, so they're basically stuck in a musical purgatory. Yesterday I posted the song "The Willing Well I: Fuel for the Feeding End," which I would easily consider my favorite song off the album. It has the right mix of everything that makes them a good band and has some of their more metaly stuff in it too. So I'm just going to post all my favorite songs off the album cause I can :)

Besides, I only hope you know that I love you

Feed little maggot off the Westside of your sin
Run little maggot 'till they learn of what you did