Self Assessment

I need to improve myself mentally. I'm not talking about the asshole me that gets annoyed by people who wear sandals or leggings for pants, I mean by holding others to my own merit. My parents do this and it bugs the shit out of me. I don't care if one parent isn't as good as the other one because they don't do x, y, or z. I never noticed it until rather recently. I'm not ashamed of myself because I do understand the logic behind it: both parties hypothetically share the same responsibilities in all sorts of matters (like keeping a person happy, buying necessities,etc). I sound like an asshole right now (and I'm glad I do because it makes me a better person to know what I'm doing wrong ) when I say I think I represent an ideal partner in a relationship. Does it make me sound self centered? Yes. Most likely a prick too but I personally believe I carry those characteristics. Am I perfect? Hell no. So what am I getting at? Well sometimes I get annoyed when other people aren't like me, in the sense that they don't do many of the same responsibilities that I believe should be shared by partners. Am I wrong? Fuck yes I am. I am myself. I am no other person in any other relationship or even in my own. I am damaging myself when I perceive that other people should do more. How? Because I can't set my own personal standards to other people. We were all raised differently and share different or even conflicting ideas on how to approach different things. So lately I've been getting rather recently annoyed because a person who I share a living space with has no job, spends the most time at home, and does the least amount around the house. This is my perception of how I see things. I'm not sure if I'm even correct but they are also dealing with some mental health issues. For all I know they lack all motivation to do anything but: sleep, go on tumblr and watch Grey's Anatomy all day. I know they're also stressed out having moved from New York to LA (and adjusting to life without relatives or a best friend) and not having yet to find a job. I'll slowly get better at this.

Ridiculous

It's weird to see a person in denial about their eating habits. You can't even finish a kid's meal, why do you even order large portions of food?!

Truth

I need to do better. This has been a bit of a mess and I know I'm part of the problem. I'm most likely a bigger part of the problem than I thought I have been. I'm monogamous to the core.

A Voyage Into The Unknown

Everything in this past month is more than I ever would've imagined and then some. I'm loving it in every way possible. It's unfortunate that some of it going to be put on hold for the moment but it is time to take the next step. We're going into uncharted territory with no real possible way of knowing how things will end on the other side. But I think we're all positive and it will work out.

I Love

The woman I'm with. In every way possible.

El Equipo Que Gana A Los Mejores Y Pierde Con Los Peores

I'm a huge Mexican National Team fan and it's just terrible to watch these games where they have no composure and can't play to save their lives. I just don't understand why this team isn't clicking. Vela should be scoring goals, Layun should be a great offensive and defensive player, Hector Herrera...don't even get me started. I just hope they all get their shit together. I want them to win the Gold Cup final, but with how they're playing, doesn't seem likely

Confessing My Love

I absolutely love my partner/soulmate/best friend. She is this amazing person that I find myself lucky to be with. She is charming, intelligent and just fucking gorgeous. It's crazy how beautiful she is and she chose me to be her partner. The chemistry is there and it's just amazing how we work so well together, have all these conversations and grow with each other. I love her and I'm really excited for what the future holds.

Sometimes it's just so easy to get bypassed in recollecting memories. I swear. All I ask for is thank yous and that's like the hardest thing in the world.

Thoughts While Cutting Lots of Cables

I was thinking about RoadRunner United (as it's their 10th anniversary) and the one song that really let me down was "Roads." It features Opeth's singer Mikael Akerfeldt on vocals. That guy has some amazing growls and a really good, really technical guitar player, but he sings the slowest song on the album. Are you fucking kidding me? Ridiculous 

Our Songs

I will always love these songs