Starting From Scratch

A day turns into a week which turns into a month. I watch these invented hours fly by and I continue to sit alone. Half of the people I hang out with are all in relationships and I do admit it does become a bit awkward at times. I sit there admire others. Whether their relationship is on the rocks or at its peak, is not what's in question. The point is that they still share something at the end of the day. A smile, sometimes large and other times small, but of each other.

As I sit in my bed, under my comfy covers, I resonate with life six years ago. My best friend, Gio, and I were both single back then and we both are now. (Don't get the wrong idea here people.) I told Gio the other day that "it's just like the old days. Just you and me buddy." People (including myself) have a tendency to say that they live without certain obligations because they're not in a relationship, but I do miss that at random times. Receiving a text and smiling the second you saw who it was or even just be like "I'm not in the mood to talk to you right now" and putting it off until later.

Maybe I need to start from scratch and change who I am. But maybe (more like absolutely) not. I wear black band shirts everyday because (besides the fact that they look fucking awesome) I want people to know who I really am. I've already been in a relationship where a girl has disliked (well more like hated) both my taste in music and my form of dress and tried to change me (only to be unsuccessful). She only wore Abercrombie and Hollister and later cheated on me with a cholo (I'm not lying about this stuff. Ridiculous shit right). I know that opposites attract but I'm fucking tired of my opposites, they always find a flaw in me. I accept theirs but they don't accept mine (which is why they're probably my opposites right?). But anyways, it's Sunday night and I have other things on my mind than this. Piece out yo, I'm hungry and want some food for my stomach.