Aspirations

Failure is not an option when you aspire to nothing. Life continues to give me no reasons to aspire for something better. I'm only a failure to those who impose their own expectations on me. Maybe one day I'll wake up and believe "Jazz, there is atleast one person out there who wants to see you graduate from college" or maybe "there is someone out there worth living life for" or even "you'll never beat Donkey Kong 64, so just give up." My life will eventually need goals, aspirations and reasons to work hard in life, but that time doesn't appear to be anytime soon. I guess the only real goal I have is graduate from college. I don't even know what I want out of life. Five years ago, I lived with my entire family, two years ago I lived with my dad, one year ago I lived with my mom and now the divorce has strained so many family relations. We were forced to sell the home I planned on living in for the rest of my life. Oh well, material things come and go just as people do. I have to admit that I'm completely baffled as life threw a curveball and reintroduced someone into my life. Is it temporary like other times before? No idea, but I welcome them with open arms. I'm still cracking the same jokes, so I'm not complaining. Maybe it's just time to relax and see what happens in life. A few concerts are coming up, so I've definitely got a few things to look forward to.