Beating On Death's Door

I feel like I'm isolated from the world. I don't talk to anyone where I live and I don't leave the house except to go to school. All my friends live like 30 miles away and I'm stuck with the darkness that is my mind. I think I might be going insane to a certain extent. Death is slowly playing a more prominent role in my mind. I don't really want to welcome it but it's kinda just there, always lurking in the back of my mind. The thought of everyday possibly being my last feels comforting in a way. I'm getting tired of just sitting in my room and blasting music from my computer and record player because of my lack of human interaction. So the great thing about this weekend is that I was able to relieve myself of some of that isolation. Hanging out with some of my friends and grabbing a few slices of pizza was very relaxing and therapeutic. I love hanging out with John. I've known him my whole life and he had a huge influence on my life both academically as personally. I also finally got around to buying my ticket to go see Lamb of God and In Flames on Halloween. I'm really excited to see that show because the pit for Lamb of God is going to be fucking brutal. I really wanted to see some other people in LA but didn't have the opportunity too. Oh well, would have been nice since I miss them.