Jotun

I'm feeling a bit crappy today. I think it has to do with the weather. I mean sure my day has gone better than yesterday, but not really by much. Though I do prefer laying in bed staring at my computer from having nothing to do, over hating myself from brain melting exams, both still suck.

I've already planned to go bike riding tomorrow morning right after I wake up as a way to partially shake off the feeling. Tomorrow is another day that finds itself to be spent mostly at home, so I need to get out, even if it's for a little bit, just so I don't end up digging my own burial. I even lost all temptation to watch movies at home. THAT'S MY FAVORITE THING TO DO HERE!!! I'm hoping tomorrow there will be a spark in my head that goes off so I can think of a bunch of movies to watch when I get back home. But then again, it could be that my body is recovering from being burnt out from all the paper writing and studying during finals. The past 10 days were not kind at all to my body and mind. I could still use a hug, but I guess holding Jiffy when I go to sleep will do for now.

It's also a starless night sky tonight. I think the reason why I find it so beautiful is because it's an empty sky. There is no particular object to look at.

I really hope I dream tonight (and I'm not talking about one of those bullshit five second dreams either!). I just want to fucking dream again like I used to. I'm jealous of people who can dream on a daily basis. I hate not having something to look forward to as I lay down to sleep. The idea of having a dream that takes me on an adventure...I can't even dream about that.

"A body of black that carried no reflection"