Coconuts

I've had a headache all day. It was weird earlier today (even a bit yesterday) in which I lacked motivation to ride my bicycle. It's a feeling I've rarely gotten since really seriously taking up cycling. I felt out of shape (I'm not really out of shape when it comes to bike riding) with the constant need to grasp for air, a hurting stomach and a headache that developed (which I still have now since 1 in the afternoon).

Motivation isn't usually a problem. I love to ride my bicycle. I love the adrenaline rush from just peddling as fast as I can alongside cars, that love/hate relationship with drivers and my want to just shout at them. Just peddling was hard for me to do and there wasn't much wind to provide resistance. On top of all that, I had my bicycle playlist blasting to get me in the mood but yet nothing. I've gotten my 12 mile ride down to about 50-55 minutes all in one go. But today it took me close to an hour five/hour ten and I had to stop three times because I needed to catch my breath. I felt queasy while riding. I threw up in my mouth a few times, but just swallowed it and kept riding. I'm still confused now as to why it happened, but hopefully tomorrow I don't have it and if I do well just going to push through it and ride. One way or another I need to find that self motivation.

I had really been in the mood to watch Monty Python and the Holy Grail these last couple of days and finally got around to watching it today. I watched it with my mom and step-dad and they ended up falling asleep so I pretty much just watched the whole thing by myself. It's an enjoyable movie so I didn't really mind it in the end. It made me forget about my headache for periods of time before the pulsing reminded me it was there.

Yesterday America and I went to park to have lunch/dinner and read. It felt really nice and I'm really looking forward to do it again in the near future :)