Deja Vu

I don't know what to post. My emotions are all over the place. I feel sorrow like I want to sob but cannot actually bring myself to it. I want my life to just be calm and relaxing for just one day but that itself just seems like too much to ask for. Yesterday was awesome and today just ruined the enjoyability of a lot of things. I don't feel the same laughs when I watch Daria that I did just watching clips earlier on in the week. I'll let my repressed thoughts live on in the music I hear. Some metal is dark and that's just the way I like it. The world is not a beautiful place as people make it out to be. "No life. No hope. No future."